why do you have to ask questions you dont really know if you want the answers to? I'm back into depressed mode and it sux....i hate this and just wanna give up on the whole situation but i cant cuz i care too much and i'm tired of this perpetual turmoil my brain is in...do i fight for what i want and give even for or just throw in the towel, cuz chances are its gonna be and epic failure? FUCK IT ALL!! BLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!