why is it that things just don't work out the way you want them to? I just sux, you make a big decision in your life and you finally realize you made the right decision but its still hard at times, then the one person that really helped you through this crazy difficult time is gone, and all you wanna do is spend time with them? It sux, I did something stupid and fell for someone I shouldn't have cause I knew he was leaving but I still had to fall for him...now he's freakin over a thousand miles away and it hurts even more that I just saw him last week. I miss him even more and its so hard to deal with it! I'm just lost and I don't know how to feel anymore...do I continue to like him even though hes so far away and it doesn't look like he'll be coming back to Tx anytime soon or give up? I don't wanna give up though cuz hes such a kickass guy, but how long to I wait?

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